(for the record i think this can apply to most addictions, not just relationships.)

no matter how many times i watch the notebook i will never understand how the most passionate relationships are the most explosive. on a superficial level, it seems incredibly unhealthy and damaging. it probably is. but how can one relationship evoke such polar opposite emotions? creating a bond with one person is incredibly enriching and satisfying: connecting with them on emotional level, in addition to appreciating their mind. it’s a limitless type of affection that is unparalleled to loving a friend or relative. unlike with a friend or parent, you let one person see every side of you. you want them to see and know everything, and it brings a blissful satisfaction. but ironically, someone who knows you inside and out also knows exactly how to hurt you. why is it that no matter how rational or pragmatic your reasoning is, you will always excuse pain for just a slice of passion? an intelligent person can handle one ounce of mistreatment from an acquaintance or friend before they run for the hills… but for a significant other they will make excuses and indulge in a vicious cycle of love and hate. the reason why i even mentioned the notebook is that in the end, their love story seems to be worth every obstacle. but please tell me, how do you differentiate between a struggle and an obstacle? assuming struggles are inherently damaging, while obstacles help your relationship grow. is there some moment of enlightenment where you realize the pain was for a greater good? or do you realize it will be a regret in ten years time? and why is it that when you attempt to move on (for the sake of your sanity, self-respect, and well-being), you are overcome with a suffocating regret, and now of all times, want to feel optimistic? trying to spare your heart brings it pain. plus, not only are you hurt emotionally, but you actually suffer physically! insomnia, headaches, anxiety, tears, and a literal ache in your chest. 

this sucks i want ice cream.

celebrities are normal people, no need to be jealous!